I truly have no idea how I can describe my feeling at the moment.
Tears just dropping when I read one of my spiritual daughter's blog, "Who am I having this huge privilege to be looked up by this great God's worshiper?"
Time flies quick and without delays since the first time our FA joint together in August 2009.
I am only His tool to serve great men and women of God who might be -at the moment- lack of their confident and not yet see God's love and predestination of their future life.
I am only their eyes whenever they cannot see God's plan, I am only their their ears whenever they cannot hear God's prayer answers. I am only God's hand whenever they need comfort, I am only God's mouth whenever they didn't understand His words.
I am only a pipe, who is watering beautiful roses, fruitful vineyard and strong olive trees who yet cannot see who they really are in Jesus.
Yes, there were times, I wouldn't dare approaching them one by one, I just didnt have much courage...
There were times I wouldn't dare directing them, telling them how they supposed to live in Jesus way..... I just dont feel have "right" to tell them, simply because I know they will be used way greater then I am now.
There were times I wouldnt dare advising them, what to do and what not to do.... There were times of struggles, many frustration. There were plenty of discouraging moments... millions of tear drops, thousands of hopes and prayers...
But looking at you know, I just can mesmerize on how God truly transform you.
Those who came to cell group with no expectation, now they become great prophets
Those who came with past burden, now they become True worshipers of God.
Those who came with hopeless, now they become prayer warriors.
Those who came with no purpose, now they become great leaders and shepherds.
Is it me? NO! It is God who changes you all!
It is my honor to serve my Lord in your lives. All I can say now, is just like Paul said in Romans 8: 18-30
The tears and pain of childbirth will nothing compare to the glory I now see in each of you.
All I can say is.... it is WORTHWILE!
From the deepest side of my heart, let me say one more time:
"I truly love you all, and my one and only intention is to see you grow in Jesus.
Sorry for strong words I always used,
high standard I put,
in which I have never regretted a bit.
Because I know
His beautiful plan in everyone of you."
...and here is my very last message to all of you,
"Set your eyes upon Jesus,
never compromise a single bit.
as we are only a pilgrim of this world,
and huge reward is waiting for us,
up there.
Fight! a good fight of faith, and
Run! in the race that He set for you"
(... a reply to Jessica Sutiono's July inspiration )
embrace you all in Christ's love,
